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(i can only dream i drive on roads like this)
with all my driving to and from school, i have a lot of time in the car. lately, i have been listening to rick mckinley's podcasts from imago dei in portland. it's been a time i look forward to as it usually benefits me more than lady gaga.
the past two podcasts have been about jonah. i was amazed at all the new things i learned from a story i thought i knew very well. there are a few thoughts that have been resonating in me, but the main one is this:
what if i got everything i wanted?
gosh, my mind's been fixed on this lately. so often i get mine and God's roles mixed up. i'm certain i know what's best and what i want most and i get so angry when God puts something in the way of that. i like to think that i have a far better idea of what's going on as opposed to God... crazy.
so, i've been thinking about all of my dreams and visions of the way i had planned my life and how most of those things didn't work out. when that happens, it is hard to figure out what "God is love" means. yet, i am in this place of life. i am married, living in dc, in nursing school and it's better than any dream i could have created. my husband is beyond anything i could have created in my head. dc has been an adventure and has grown ryan and i hugely. and nursing school is such a blessing and my friends there are better than i could have wished for. God knew... He knows.
last week our pastor here, mark batterson, spent some time on this verse:
now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.
God is good. and though i may never understand why some things happen, i have faith in knowing he is the God of the universe and is doing something bigger than what i want.